These Mother Moons has now changed over to a new blog name: Winter Slytherin, Tornado Chasing Witch. It's still me though. :-) Changed the address too: http://tornadochasingwitch.blogspot.com/
A cheesy blog "theme" has sort of over time developed for me. As I said in my last post I am a Gemini. Air sign all the way. I constantly refer to my children as "tornadoes". And actually tornadoes have been a lifelong fascination for me. So out of the blue a blog name came to me that reflects all of that.
I also sort of updated my "about me":
Do I actually chase tornadoes? Well yes... I daily chase EF-3 kids around the house and I'm a lifelong Tornado Alley resident so I've actually chased some literal tornadoes too! Simply put I'm just a wife, mother, nerdy music and book lover who is trying to navigate through these storms of life! I like to refer to myself as a "Slytherin Witch" which simply means an I'm a proud spiritual introvert who has been on the Pagan-ish path for 13 years now. My adventures into motherhood and mid thirties have turned out differently than I would have expected, yet very much blessed all the same. Every day is a journey to find the magick among: three kids who rip through our tiny house like tornadoes, our family being a classic example of the faltering American economy as we live our lives on the poverty line in an "upscale mobile home park", the mini van with the high mileage, a night job in the service industry, endless Spongebob reruns and about 30 lbs of baby weight left to lose. But life is a journey and I'm "free to fly" and every day I'm accomplishing more and more toward rediscovering the magick and remembering how to love myself.
Eventually I'll figure out some really cool header and if anyone can advise me on how to make those BLOG BUTTON thingies... well, that would be just great.
Yes... this was a real tornado shot taken by me on my street this year! This could have turned out really badly but luckily it didn't...
If you are here because you clicked Broom #3 from Witch Blog's Real Witches of Halloween Blog Tour, then welcome!
I am honored to be featured. Although I have been blogging for years this one is sort of a baby blog. Therefore I've been just getting started here, but the posts below I feel give a good overview of what is going on in this witch's little world.
The writer of this blog (Kallan) recently posted on a subject that's been troubling me for... well, it's been at least four years now, and that is the subject of "Pagan apathy".
She mentions a Pagan temple in the Minneapolis area that could barely raise $7,500 to keep their temple open. In the end they did finally raise the money but it mostly came from contributions from other states rather than the local community whom it existed to serve. I live in Texas, the very buckle of the Bible belt, and I'd be willing to bet that some of the mega churches that we have out here raise this type of money weekly. While I realize the Pagan community isn't near as well established or financially secure I still find the whole comparison a bit mind boggling.
I have actually never thought about it really in depth until about this moment but I dropped totally out of the (in real life) Pagan community back in 2004. Actually I believe that is why I chose part of my magickal name back in that same year ("Slytherin") - not only because I'm the ultimate Harry Potter nerd - but because once I see the bumbling/disappointing/dark side of human nature I become extremely solitairy and do not "play well with others".
I live in the Dallas/Fort Worth area. For years here we had a beautiful Pagan sanctuary called Betwixt and Between that I was a member of for a while. I used to love it there. The first time I'd stepped through their doors (in the year 2000 or 2001 I want to say) it was like falling in love at first sight with that boy in 11th grade Geometry class. I was filled with nothing but positive hopes for the future, total fulfilment on my newfound spiritual path as a Wiccan, and a total sense of belonging - much like a young girl in love for the first time. But once the sparkly surfaced was scratched I found lots of backbiting between the leaders of the community. The location of the temple changed every single year due to evictions, which was very unsettling. There were plenty of financially contributing members (including myself) but somehow they just couldn't stay ahead. They finally closed their doors sometime around 2007 or so but I had stopped taking part long before then.
In her blog Kallan says: "One of the things we noted is that Pagans don't spend a lot. There is a stigma attached somehow (true or not?) that Pagans don't have disposable income. I wonder if that truly is the case, because many (most) of my Pagan friends are what we would term as middle-class folks. I realize we're in a downed economy, folks. But, does this mean we're no longer spending anything at all other than on rent/mortgages, car payments, food, clothing and shelter? Somehow, I think not. I see tons of FB pages posting about vacations, movies, books, etc... so I'm finding it hard to believe that we don't have the money to spend on our spiritual tools, books, etc... nor on places of worship and things designed specifically to support our community."
True dat. These days (with three kids, loss of earning power, a divorce and now a second marriage) I have no disposable income. But back when I was an active Pagan I was comfortably middle class. Kallan links Raven Grimassi's blog and there was a quote that was somehow very startling to me: "Many Publishers of books on Wicca, Witchcraft, Paganism, Magick and so on, are seeing a sharp decline in the interest of such books among the public."
All I can think is (eyes popping jaw dropping) "Has it really gotten that bad?" But I know before I even complete the question that yes, it has. And I'm sad to say that it particularly had in my own world.
She mentions the fact that Pagan shops are faltering and failing at an alarming rate. And don't I know it? Dallas/Fort Worth used to be filled with them. My favorite went bust about five years ago. But there is one still within driving distance but not only are they ridiculously overpriced but a few years ago when my first child was about two one of the owners kept ribbing me about the big fat baby belly I couldn't seem to lose and kept comparing my figure to the Millineal Gaia statue. I have that statue here in my living room but as beautiful as it is I can never look at it without thinking of my "disgusting belly" that has now borne a total of three children. Needless to say I have never set foot in a Pagan shop since. Its rare I get to do rituals these days so it is rare that I need things, but when I do I either make do with what I have or shop online.
My whole point to this ramble is that I became disenchanted with the community years ago and it unfortunately changed my spiritual views totally. I believe my spiritual views are much more mature now but I miss the "stars in the eyes in love for the first time" days of early Wicca. Like most I ended up having a bad experience in someone's in home Wiccan coven. The leader (amidst backstabbing everyone in the coven and practicing things a little too dark even for this Slytherin Witch) constantly claimed to see "fairies" in every square inch of her home. I am reminded of the old Morrissey lyrics from his Ouiga Board, Ouiga Board song: "The table is rumbling/the glass is moving/no I was NOT pushing that time" You know what? The video to that song perfectly summarizes the disconnect I felt to the Wicca after these experiences:
For a while I tried going back to my Baptist roots. As you can imagine this didn't really work for me either. There are things I find about Christianity and the Christian community that I find beautiful. One of the big things is the way the community rises together and supports each other in ways that the Pagans do not, and it is of course this failing in the Pagan community that is causing the gradual lack of interest. I love that most Christian circles promote basic family values, such as not leaving a marriage unless it is absolutely necessary (trust me on this, divorce really does screw up the kidlets). That being said there are things I will NEVER agree with that they also rise as a community to fight: banning of gay marriage, banning rights to any religious groups that are not their own. There are pieces of Christ's message that I find not only beautiful but applicable to everyday life. But there are too many things in my Pagan soul that I cannot let go of no matter how many salvation prayers are uttered or baptisms are mulled over. Things such as: Greek pantheon and legends, daemons, spirit guides, animal guides, the actual experience of seeing and knowing magick works, the sensing and feeling of the energy in every living thing... just to name a few. So in the end I just kind of combine my love of both spiritual paths and toss out what doesn't work. Most on both sides of the fence would say that couldn't work "you cannot serve two masters" but I believe each person's spiritual experience really can only be tailored for them, and for me this was where experience has led me for now.
